Can't Relate?
"The things that have happened to you aren't normal. You need to stop normalizing it." - my therapist
5/8/20241 min read
It's hard as an adult to make new friends. It's even harder when you feel like you can't relate to the general population. I haven't had a normal life. I just turned 37 and this is the first time since I was 16 years old that I've stayed in the same place for more than 3 years. I didn't have a normal childhood or parents. It really is amazing how often we reminisce as adults. Maybe I just feel that way because every time others talk about their past; throwing parties while their parents were out, springs breaks, their kids, basically normal experiences - I just stand there. It's not that I'm introverted or shy, I have no input, no such similar story exists and if I share my experiences the mood's going to change. I just can't relate.
I feel like there are two very distinct sides to me. One in which I shut down and don't feel much but am fearless. The other feels everything and is full of fear and ashamed of it.
I